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Teddi Sweeney's avatar

God this was powerful. Random and I’m not a stalker: still doing T’masters? Been procrastinating.

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Lila's avatar

Thank you for sharing that this piece moved you! Toastmasters is a reliable source of joy! Highly recommend!

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Theresa Johnson's avatar

Thank you for being. Your words mean so much. Truly.

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Lila's avatar

🥹

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Ben Greenzweig's avatar

I am grateful for your vulnerability and appreciate the courage it took to author this. Your testimony is incredibly impactful and I will add you to my prayer board. Thank you again for sharing, Lila.

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Lila's avatar

That is a kindness, Ben, and I thank you for it.

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Ben Greenzweig's avatar

There's no other way! ;-)

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Lila's avatar

There is, but it is un-preferable!

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Trisha Benson's avatar

Everyone should read this. Even if not depressed or sad or manic or anything else. The vulnerability is next level. 10/10.

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Lila's avatar

Oh my, this is so beautiful, Trisha. Thank you thank you thank you.

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Eileen Dougharty's avatar

I really needed this today. Subscribed as I am down for all the Lilas.

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Lila's avatar

Gahhh, Eileen, this makes me 🥹 farklempt!

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Jeff Benson's avatar

This is a fantastically vulnerable piece of writing.

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Lila's avatar

Jeff, thank you so much for seeing me. How did you find this piece?

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Jeff Benson's avatar

Not sure if it just came across my Substack feed or if it was recommended by someone I follow. I saw the title, and it made me think of how I've been trying to make friends with my anger—but that my anger is often a mask for sadness. In short, it seemed relevant to my own journey. And, though it was highly specific to you, I found in it something universal.

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Lila's avatar

Jeff, that was precisely what I hoped for when I wrote it. Thank you.

If at any point you have updates on dating your anger, I’d love to hear any insights you have.

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Lauren  Cappadona's avatar

Wooooooff. My sadness is in the same boat as your sadness.

I have never felt a more profound form grief and sadness and despair before in my life. Nor did I ever think it possible for any human to feel these things so deeply.

It feels nice to be seen.

You know the expression “one door closes so a new one can open?” Well, sometimes it’s hell in the hallway. And I’m in one long dark scary hallway and I’m tripping and stumbling and all the doors are locked and I can’t find this pretty new door that’s supposed to open yet.

Sometimes it’s hell in the hallway.

Thanks for shining a light into the hallway.

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Lila's avatar

Oh Lauren, I hear you clearly. I feel for you. I feel with you. I am grateful that you feel seen by my sharing my own sadness.

Goodness, it can ABSOLUTELY BE HELL IN THE HALLWAY. What a beautiful way to put it. I can only hope that we phoenix the fuck out of there before too long.

Thank you for sharing your special self with me. Thank you for asking for the support you needed from your people. I'm so so so glad that they showed up for you.

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Forrest Sedgwick's avatar

Thank you, this is beautiful.

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Lila's avatar

Thank you, dear Forrest, for reading, and resonating, and always supporting my work in the world. I love you!

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The Wild Love Priestess's avatar

Thank you thank you thank you. Sending all the love to Lila any way she is 💕

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Lila's avatar

You honor me. 🥰 Love gratefully received and beamed back.

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Samia Mounts's avatar

I love this so much. I love this so much I have no words other than "I love this so much." Also I love YOU so much. I WANT A SAD LILA! I WANT A LILA ANY WAY SHE IS!

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Lila's avatar

Was it YOU WHO SAID THAT?!!!

You have totally proven that you want a sad Lila, a Lila any way she is, and I could weep with gratitude. Thank you thank you thank you.

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